helo or hi or watever

XTIAN


"its been a while since nag usap tayo and nag iisip isip ako...

madami akong tanong sayo pero di ko masabi.. naguguluhan din ako, actually naguguluhan ako sayo.

alam ko youre in the moment of your life na mhirap coz of your current break up with your gf, i know that you still love her. i know that and i dont want to make it hard for you kaya nanahimik ako.

gusto kita raimus, as in alot. pero di ko alam kung gusto mo din ako. i know i am not perfect, for one, i am not a girl. but i am somebody who is ready to love you, honestly whole heartedly and unconditionally. just let me.

pero ayoko ipilit sarili ko sayo. alam ko nakukulitan ka na din sakin. hindi ko alam kung TH b ko, pero i felt a connection with you in the last instances that we are together. di ko alam kung tama b o mali.

i am not expecting a reply from this message. but if you will do so, thank you. kung hindi, maybe that would be the right time for me to move on and let my heart beat for somebody else. i want to be love now, and i hope by you. pero kung hindi talaga pede, maybe i deserve somebody else. just always remember that i had happy times nung mga panahon na kasama kita. thank you. and take care of your self. be happy."

RAIMUS

"thx for understanding, ryt now im still trying to move on, pero im doing good naman eh,"

XTIAN again

"hmm... tama ka. hindi mo p kaya sabihin talaga ngayun.. coz youre still in love with her. i am willing to wait.. sana worth it yung patience ko. pero rai, sana wag matagal kasi baka may ibang dumating. ikaw talaga gusto ko. pero kung ayaw mo sakin wala ako magagwa.

maghihintay ako hanggang sabihin mo n yung dapat mong sabihin. pero sana sa panahon n yun... mahal p din kita.

for now. i keep my silence and let you heal. pero hindi n ko aasa sayo."


TANGA BA KO O TALAGANG MAHAL KO LANG TALAGA SIYA... AYOKO SIYA IWAN SA MGA PANAHON NA TO... PERO SIYA NAGTUTULAK SAKIN PALAYO...

I met raimus last year when I am with my college frends in Baclaran. (galing kami sa Makati to look for a company for our OJT)Biglang dumaan tong lalaking guwapo na medyo chubby (na most of the time i like), then out of my shock, kilala siya ng mga friends ko, apparently, they were classmates way back in high school. Then ayun, kamustahan sila... ako deadma lang... pero nakatingin ako sa kanya and he was looking back to me as well. I got his number from my friends then txted him but unfortunately, he has a girlfriend at that time so he actually rejected me at once though i know that he is PLU (people like us). Ok. Deadma. Comatose ako sa kanya.

three months later...
AMPUTA, biglang tumunog cellphone ko! Number na hindi ko kilala... "hu u??"... "raimus to, yung frend ni cams"... OMG! WTF! TMTH! what on earth?? and then we texted... we met again in cams place... for a couple of times... i flirted.. he flirted back but he still has his chakaness GF at that time...

AT ayun na nga... isang araw... umagang umaga... CHAT sa YM...

"BREAK na KAMI".