Is it really a MERRY XMAS??

My sister from Dubai asked me to do a task for the Christmas. Since she and my other sister were abroad working, it is only me and my parents who will be celebrating(this is the second consecutive year). My task is simple. I will go out with my parents to eat in some good place and if I will do so I will be rewarded(money of course hehe).So we had a "Christmas Lunch" in Le Garden which is a Hong Kong Restaurant. It is located at Paseo de Carmona, so it is only near to our house. We were so satisfied with the foods that is why we had some take outs hehe... Merry Christmas to all...



I love my parents.. hehe!(ows???!!)

And then I miss him...

To live in this world, you must be able to do three things:
to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones
knowing your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go, let it go.

Yes, that is exactly what I did. I let him go in spite of the pain which I still hold to myself until now. I am not bitter. I can say, with all the courage that I had already moved on. I know how to accept realities and if I know that something is not meant for me, I loosen up my grip to that. But still I am a vulnerable to feel that sadness and cruelty of loosing somebody whom I valued most in my life. That somebody who made me feel some sort of love and affection even he doesn't show so much emotions.

I met Migi when I transferred to La Salle, we were in first year then (actually that was supposed to be my 3rd year in college). He was the first person which I noticed in the class because he was so cute, he's like a true celebrity. And when I say celebrity as in goooood-looking. So he became my crush. I know at that time that he is like me, he is very demure-shy-type-with-a-nice-cute-smile. But to cut this story short, I tried to be-close to him and I was successful. We became super close friends because we are same even if we are in the opposite side of the spectrum. We don't have anything in common, as in nothing. But still we became best friends. And my crush thinggy to him suddenly vanished because I valued our friendship.

The rest of this story will be post next time... This is one of the stories which I will repeatedly tell to anyone else.

I was chatting to April a while ago. Then she said that Migi is online in YM, she asked if I want to get the ID and I affirmed. I message him but he did not respond. I was like a kid telling April that he did not respond and she told me that Migi was offline already coz he will do some important things. She then send me their whole conversation in YM. I read it. Every bit of that conversation struck my whole being. I don't know why. Maybe because I felt that I am the one he was chatting to in that conversation. Yes, I miss him. In their conversation he said that he misses us(his friends) all too . *sigh

PS. Migi is my best friend before, but we parted ways because of some immature and irrelevant reasons. And since then, we did not hang out anymore.

This is the old fun days.

Just Kill Me

This past few weeks have been such a busy one for me (or I am just making it so complicated). Many things happened, and for so many reasons, I am down again. I am concealing again the pain and hatred which I have inside of me. I wanna die now. I wanna end this once and for all. But I don't have the strength to stop my journey. This damn journey!

There is no reason for me to be happy. (Am i just too insecure and envious or this is the right feeling)

Christmas is just around the corner. The Holidays as they say. The right season to be happy. The cold breeze which makes people feel the true spirit of giving and loving. And then me. Here. Alone. Tired. Pathetic. But I am still thinking, am I the only one feeling this. Do i deserved this?

I don't want to be so pitiful to myself. I know I am beginning to be so melodramatic again. But what should I do? I have alot of pressures now. Many things to accomplish. I should be responsible. I need to be productive. But how would I do this if I am so fuckin down...

BOTTOMLINE: I need some motivation.

Or just kill me.

I am tired of uttering "Im tired!"

YES! That is the statement of the week. I don't know how I reached that point. (Or am I?)I am tired of everything. Tired of thinking what's ahead of my day tomorrow. Tired of losing my self. Tired of feeling hopeless. Tired of hypocrisy. Of concealing. Of running. I am tired. And I don't know how to stop.

I NEED TO QUENCH.

I NEED SOMEONE TO PAMPER ME. (Do I?)

I NEED TO EXHAUST.

I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS LONELINESS. AND I REALLY NEED TO. BUT HOW?

Someday is a misused word already. I need it now. Right now.

Approved!

As part of the training that I am having in my practicum in WSO, they asked us (the interns) to do some conceptualization for the creative executions of the clients. So, I made three proposals for them. This is for the client Humamet, a drug for diabetes. I was blissful and fulfilled when they told me that they liked my two concepts and they approved it for client presentation. (But of course they would still edit the lay-out). so here it is...




These are Diabetes Advocacy ad for Humamet.

Bend and not Break

Try to understand there's an old mistake
that fools will make and,
I'm the king of them
pushing everything that's good away so,
Won't you hold me now?

I hate myself. I know I am getting so paranoid again. Why am I always like this? Why is it that every time I love somebody, always follows that I will lose them sooner or later. Yeah I know, I am not new in this position. I had this a lot of times before, but damn shit, I still don't know how to handle this. My feelings just kill me.

I had a conversation with TJ, his my virtual Bf. As in Bestfriend/Boyfriend. Yes, that's our relationship as far as I know. Am i presumptuous? Kinda. We have been in this kind or relationship for two years now. At first we were just text mates, them call mates, (we do everything virtually) and then chat mate. We never had the time to meet each other co'z every time his going to Manila (his living in Baguio), I am not available.

This past few weeks, I seldom heard from him, he even forgot to greet me on my birthday. I was so bothered because his not texting or calling or even going online. And then last two nights ago, he popped-up on my messenger. We started chatting, asking him what happened to him. I was so calm talking to him even though I am so disappointed to his reasons. Then, the inquiry that made me realized everything...

Workshop One

The week was finally over and this is my chance to really have a good night sleep. I am bit tired for the week that was since my routine was suddenly change a bit. I am now having my Internship in an advertising agency in Makati, it is called Workshop One, Integrated Marketing Communication. Fortunately, I did not have a hard time to enter in this agency since it was owned by the uncle of my friend. I was really happy that i got into this agency, i love the people and the place. Though it is a small agency, they still cater to known brands in the industry like BDO, San Miguel and Coca Cola.

So hows my first week there?

Its really FUN! I mean it. I am very lucky to have this company. I don't do a lot of things but I still learn from the people. I will be posting more stuffs which i will experience inside this agency but for now, i got one photo to show. *sleepy... zzzz...

The Start of the Chronicles

This would be the alpha of my long lost passion in writing. I had an aspiration to be a writer when i was a little younger, actually even when i am still in high school, i sometimes try to write stories or just anything for my angst to get out of my system. I was hesistant to make this blog site coz i am afraid that my wrting skill is not that sufficient enough to catch other people's attention to read my scriptures. But then again, i asked my self, is that the only reason for me to write or there would be a bigger and appropriate reason for me to make my blogs.And so it finally struck me the realization which gave me this will to start doing this.


I WILL WRITE BECAUSE I OUGHT TO. I NEED TO SHARE. FOR OTHERS. TO INSPIRE OR DESTRUCT. EITHER OR NEITHER.

So what is the rationale of my title? The chronicles of life and death. This is an album title of one of my fav band, good charlotte. And just like their songs in that album, my blog site will features everything which i had experienced in my life until the day i die.



CAUTION: I will be so brutally vulgar about my feelings. And i will write all the things which i want to say.